" Leave September, open up for November, looking forward for December and waiting for the New Year "
October 31, 2011
I've missed a lot of news, stories since I was so sick for the past few days. Thank God, am fully recovered now. Up till now I'm still alive and I thanked God for that. I'm happy it's November now. Because past few months was the biggest nightmare for me. I felt like living in a hunted life. Everyday I had a nightmare and it sucks. It really does. I wished and pray hard to God every single day to avoid from those nightmares but it doesn't worked and finally I'm survive till today because of the one month semester break. At least while having my loved ones around my past didn't brag in my happiness. Today's date is 1/11/2011 super cool and I wish God will make it more cheerful and different because I'm ready for a new chapter and it begins now.
October 28, 2011
I'm going to get you baby. Seriously I will. Just wait mummy will come and pick you end of this year. Very fashionable, stylish, high class, real standard and fabulous. December please come fast. I need to save more money so I can take you with me to Malaysia. Please be nice so I won't waste my money just for you. I LOVE H&M!
I've got little things I want before enter my second semester.
-> Macbook Pro 13 inch
-> Iphone 4
-> Anna Sui Flight of Fancy Perfume
-> Prada Fairy Bag
-> Zara, Cotton On, Top Shop, Forever 21, PDI clothes
-> Warehouse Accessories
-> Charles & Keith shoes
-> Esprit Watch
-> Elle Bed Sheet
-> Body Shop Body Lotion
-> Driver License
-> Suzuki Swift (hihihi :D)
-> Pencil Case
-> MissWhatever File
-> New Hair Done (colored hair?hihihi :D)
I'll get what I want no matter what and how it takes. I am a very determined person :)
It's little short teaser from the Family Get-Away at Langkawi Island. It's a little few late because I'm not feeling very well past few days. So here it goes. More photos from the cam-whore siblings visit our Facebook =)
From Kuala Lumpur -> Alor Setar -> Pandang Besar had our little shopping before heading to Kuala Perlis
Boarding to Langkawi Island from Kuala Perlis with the Ferry -.-
After a very long journey finally arrived at our Hotel
Getting ready for our very first shopping maniac at Idaman Suri
After tired shopping we had our dinner at Sawadee Restaurant near Cenang
Second Day shopping at all Haji Ismail places
Window Shopping and Beach Day at Cenang
After went for morning till evening walk we had our dinner at Malay Restaurant
Cam-whore at the beach before leaving the Hotel
Had Starbucks before ride on the Ferry
Arrived Kuala Perlis had our lunch at Laksa Restaurant
October 17, 2011
If you were my girlfriend, I could never ignore you, even if you said you hated me and wished I was dead. I'd always pick up the phone for you even at 3 am. And I'd always text you first every single day. I'd send you a message first thing every morning to tell you I love you and make sure you slept good. I'd call you every night and talk to you until you were about to sleep. And I'd even text you when you already asleep just to say I love you just incase you wake up in the middle of the night, and so you never forget how much you mean to me. I'd tell you everyday how perfect you are. I wouldn't let anyone be mean to, or even touch you. I'd do whatever it takes to make sure you feel safe. I'd never give you a reason to be jealous because I'd make sure that you and everyone else knows how much I love you and only you. Keeping you happy would always be my first priority. If you were upset, I'd stay up all night long talking to you to make sure you're okay. If one of my friends had problem with you or made you feel uncomfortable, I'd leave them. I'd try my hardest not to fight with you. I'd never yell at you or hurt you. I'd try to talk things out with you, and if that doesn't work I'd just forget about it. You mean so much more to mean than a stupid little fight. I'd never hurt you, and never do anything that you didn't want to even sexual stuff. I'd tell you the whole time how gorgeous you are and how much I love you. I'd be the luckiest guy ever that got to be by your side for the rest of our lives and get to hug you in my arms until you fell asleep. I just want to make sure you are happy and feel safe and loved with me around you. You're honestly the sweetest and most gorgeous girl I've ever seen in my entire life.
The greatest feeling when an anonymous inbox you this. You know deep inside that if he doesn't loves you, someone else are way in love with you. If he left you and you're about to fall there's one person would come and catch you. You're about to lost one important person in your life but there are about thousand of them still at your back loving you and care for you. I thought I'd have a lot of haters but I was wrong until this was in my inbox. Actually I have more lovers than haters. I'm lucky to have those lovers all around me. I can feel the loved. Thanks family, friends and you for sure ♥
October 13, 2011
I was in pain, you know. I mean I was in pain for a very long time. I don't regret my past, I just regret the time I've waited on the wrong people. I'm really bad at making decisions because I've never once be independent before. And so, being with you was the biggest mistakes I've ever done. Nobody wants to wait forever and I used to tell you many times that " I'll wait for you no matter what it takes and how it goes I'll just wait for you. But I've just realized that we together back are so wrong meaning we can never go back to what we used to be. Everything will just be so wrong and untrue. And one thing am so sure that I am no longer waiting for your comeback because I'm tired of waiting. Even people keep telling me that have faith in myself and miracles does happen at times but I don't want that miracles to happen to me. All I ever did was loving you, trusting you, loyal to you and it is all just a waste. Happy endings are just stories that haven't finished yet. Yes,I have made mistakes because life didn't come with warning and the mistake is you. There's no starting over. No matter where I go, whatever I do, my past just seems to follow me.Don't hate me for this because all good things must come to an end. Whenever I'm about to be happy again there must be a small pieces that going to destroy the happiness and the reason is you. Everything just got to do with you and why is that I don't know. One thing that I'm sure don't ever promise me when you can never keep your promises because once you break the promise I can never like you. I have so much to say but only one came out which is "REGRET"!
Let the right one in
Let the old dreams die
Let the wrong ones go
October 8, 2011
What's with my 360 Degrees?
Well, hehehehe I'm back! I'm officially back! The old me already back on track!
I've missed so many things, fun and joy because of my sad moments that affect me.
I'm all okay now. "That" 360 Degrees did turn me all over again.
Well, I did break with him like so many times but maybe God wants me to be with him for the rest of our lives? Or for the next few years? Who knows,true?
About destiny and fate I can't really tell you but all I know that no matter how hard people try to get into us we still trust and keep our faith high.
The incredible feelings between us was just too perfect and the bond that we had was just too sweet.
I know what I want, who I want to be with and who can really turn me 360 Degrees and that's ''Him"!
Baby, thanks for being so nice towards me.
Baby, thanks for still wanting me even I did hurt you many times.
Baby, thanks for liking me a lot like more than anybody else did.
Baby, thanks for still waiting for me even I've hurt you before by trying to hang on someone else.
Baby, thanks for taking a good care of me and I know you really care for me or else you wouldn't ask for me to come back.
Baby, thanks for being there whenever I need someone to talk to.
Baby, thanks for making me laughing all the time.
Baby, thanks for coming back into my life.
Baby, thanks for loving me and I will be loving you too more than you do.
You've done a lot for my sake, my happiness and I just missed our moment together from the beginning. Next time make sure you prepare your voice and sing me that song. So sweet of you trying to please me =)
I love you all seconds.
I miss you all minutes.
I need you all the times.
I want you for my entire life just same as you.
Once I get my eyes on you meaning you'll be the only guy that I will looked for and let's forget about the Ex! They're not important now. As for me I don't feel like thinking about it or talking about it because as for me, I don't have any and all my life is just you my one and only.
I Love You So Much, sayang!
October 2, 2011
We loved each other but we are now breaking up. We are in different places but under the same sky but please don't forget me. When the cold wind brushes against my finger tips, I can hear your laughter. The two eyes in which my face was reflected, I miss them and so I cry and cry. My lips have hardened so I couldn't say those words. We used to have this one bond but now we're in our own ways. Even we're miles apart from each other, we're not together anymore and we've got someone we love with us but please just don't forget me. Did you know that someone let you go while hiding the pain deep inside? That someone is me. That someone please love her. One day I wish for your return. In the mean time just please don't forget me.
I wish I could be happy once I'm with him. I wish he could take over your place. I wish our 6 years relationship will last longer until the very end. I wish that I am doing the right thing. I wish you happiness in your life. Stay strong and keep healthy.
October 1, 2011
Am so happy and glad to be back in my home town =)
I've got nothing to post up till now because the family aren't gather around for the time being because they're not even in Kuala Lumpur will be waiting for our short vacation in two weeks time :)
This Feeling :
Everybody's got something that they had to leave behind. One may regret from yesterday, that just seems to grow with time. There's no use looking back or wondering how it could be now or might have been because all this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go. I never had a dream come true till the day that I found you even though I pretend that I moved on you will always be my baby. I never found the words to say because you're the one that I think about each day and I know that no matter where life takes me to, a part of me will always be with you. Somewhere in my memory, I've lost all sense of time and tomorrow can never be because yesterday is all that fills my mind that you will always the dream that fills my head.I'm sure you know you will baby because you will always be the one and I know I will never forget. You know that I still love you baby and it will never change because all we had just too strong. Why can't we just be like we used to be because it's you that I need and nothing else until the end. Who else can ever make me feel the way I feel when I'm with you. Hope you know it's not right boy just stop and come back boy because right next to you is where I need to be.
Goodnight,sleep tight Malaysia :)